Why would you want to make the very first scar?
The first broken heart, the very first scar, it's just a part of being alive in this world. This song was an interesting listen for me. While I would say that I have felt broken-hearted before it's always been a mild case because I really struggle giving myself fully into any relationship. I'm too afraid of being hurt, and if you can keep a little bit of a separation, maybe you can avoid the pain of heartbreak. But I'll be the first to admit when you live life this way you also miss out on the joy of love. The best relationships of my life are the ones that I have been the most vulnerable in. I guess this is all to say that if you have been through real pain from a broken heart, it's likely because you have shown up in this world fully.
Although your heart "is not unbroken anymore," it was also allowed to experience a deep and fearless love. It's kind of the worst that the more you risk for the love the more love you can experience, and on the opposite side the more you risk for love the greater the pain if it doesn't work out. I think when I was younger I was more afraid of the pain, of loving something too much and losing it. I think I have carried that with me even into my adult years, it's so scary to love something so much. It is a practice for me to open myself up to love. To believe it, to seek it, to allow it into me in a real way.
I know this song is more about someone feeling sad that they are going through heartbreak, but for me, right now, it's a reminder to risk more for love. The love of people and the love of life. While these lyrics said one thing, my listening to them communicated the message I needed. I love this about music. I love that what it means to you personally can change and transform depending on where you are in life and what you need. Even a song written by a teenager 15 years ago can still teach me something about myself years later. What a gift.
It's not unbroken anymore. How do I get it back the way it was before?
I love Taylor Swift’s music and have a deep curiosity about who it is so meaningful to so many people. If you have any thoughts about this song in particular please share it in the comments below so that me and the Swiftie community that finds this space can enjoy your insights.
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