The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart.
High school feels like a whole different lifetime for me at this point. All the inside jokes and nights I thought I’d never forget are now blurred around the edges. Why did I have a can of Beanee Weenees on displayed so prominently in my childhood room? I know there was some deep, significant lore behind it, but try as I might I just can’t remember where it originated anymore. While high school experiences are starting to get hazy, it’s incredible how a song like Teardrops on My Guitar can transport you back to the feelings that were unique to the high school experience.
I don’t know why but high school crushes and love feels so different than any other time. It likely comes down to the experience and perspectives we get through living life as well as the brain development that happens as we grow older. This young love though, it’s a lot, and also a lot of fun. Taking a trip down memory lane by listening to this song is a good adventure to experience every once in a while.
This song is filled with drama in the best way. “I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night?” “Can he tell that I can’t breathe?” “The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart.” The first loves can be all consuming. If your experience is like mine they can also be short lived. One week it’s Drew, but then it’s Ben followed by Otis, then we will circle back to Drew because we love him, that is until we sit next to Sam in class and then it’s all about him. Yet with each of the twists and turns from person to person, it doesn’t matter. We’ll journal that night about how Ben is out and Otis is in, even though just last week Ben was the only thing that kept me “wishing on a wishing star.”
In some ways I miss this part of myself. The all in version of myself that loved so wholeheartedly and bounced back when things weren’t looking like they were going my way. It was a version of me that was always hopeful and excited. Could he be the one? And when he wasn’t, no problem because someone new was sure to pop into my orbit and become the all encompassing potential love of my life.
While life has left me feeling less optimistic than I was at 17, I still appreciate that I can listen to this song any time, and take a moment to transport back to that wild longing mixed with moments of hope. The time when I would “laugh because he’s just so funny” and despair because “I’m needing everything that we should be.”
I appreciate that I can listen to this song any time and take a moment to transport back to that wild longing mixed with moments of hope.
I love Taylor Swift’s music and have a deep curiosity about who it is so meaningful to so many people. If you have any thoughts about this song in particular please share it in the comments below so that me and the Swiftie community that finds this space can enjoy your insights.
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