On Turning 30

Hi I'm Mallory. I just turned 30. It's been an interesting time to reflect on the past decade and to decide what I want the next decade to look like for me.

I feel like I am in a pretty good place. My 20's were a wild ride. So much fun, so much growth, lots of really hard hard things, lots of really beautiful things. The 20's gave me a wonderful marriage and two beautiful girls. I lived in 4 different places across the United States. I wrote a children's book. I blogged a lot. We traveled. 

Aside from the very tangible things that happened in my 20's, I have also found that I have changed quite a bit on the inside. I have entered my 30's with the desire to be really open. Open to new ideas. Open to new thought processes. And open to myself.

Before I turned 30 I thought a lot about a gift I would like to give myself. What could I give to me that would be meaningful. That would be something I really wanted. I ended up feeling like the best gift I could give myself would be to step away from social media and to take a year to be present in my own life. To be present with my husband and children. 

For me, social media has taken up so much of my time. So much of my brain space. What would it be like to disconnect from the world a bit, and reconnect to myself. Instead of giving my time to whatever shows up on my feed, could I give myself over to things that I choose? It's an experiment.

I guess this post is ending up being a scattered invitation to you, to join me in this new decade. To join me as I explore my own self. I know I'm 30, but I'm not sure if I really know me all that well yet. I guess this is becoming a documentation of my own pursuit of sonder. Of my own pursuit to live in the richness of my life, and see other people doing the same. 

I actually have no idea what this is going to look like. But I feel really okay about that. I've found that most of life is like that. We move through ideas and experiences, exploring and learning and sharing and realizing we were wrong and hopefully course correcting and being better and doing it all again and again. So here is to the journey of exploration. I'm in the middle of it moving forward.